In 2006, I could tell you exactly who I was, and it would go a little something like this: I am the third out of four children, born second in a pair. I like to draw, paint, and visually express myself. I like the way that big words feel in my mouth, and I especially love writing down those big words. My imagination is boundless and I want to one day share that with the world in the form of novels I plan to write. My goal in life is to be as perfect of a Christian as I can be.
Some odd years later, quite a bit has changed. I find myself married to an evangelist (or preacher, or minister…all synonyms), and I have three pretty incredible children. I find that my imagination has been stifled quite a bit by the necessities of “adult life”, which isn’t necessarily a bad thing. There are often too many responsibilities on my time. I run a small business from my home to alleviate the burden that rests on Mr. Lovely’s shoulders to support our growing family. Being the third out of four children, or even second in a pair, hardly crosses my mind anymore. I mean, the thought is still there, my siblings will always be part of who I am, but now, it is my husband and my children who are my focus.
I am always trying to better myself. Always trying to become more perfect in Christ. Am I perfect? Of course not, and I won’t ever be. But the point is to always keep trying. I am human, and I am normal. Sometimes I yell at my kids, and sometimes I literally pull my hair out because life feels like too much. I get depressed upon occasion, I have struggled with eating disorders, but I keep swimming. Because when you stop trying…well…then there isn’t a point to anything anymore.
I started crocheting in 2010. Then, about a month before my youngest was born in 2011, I started up my business. It is definitely a work in progress, as everything always is, but I thoroughly enjoy it. I love to crochet, it is somewhat of an escape for me. My business has continued to change and evolve and is slowing turning into something beautiful. I love to share my knowledge of how to sell, and I love inspiring and influencing others. More and more every day I am in love with this life that God has blessed me with!